My innermost secret

Cold hands on my thighs
Cold lips on my throat

I close my eyes haring time it moves so slow
All I could do was count
Seconds to minutes minutes to hours

And all I could think was
Get these hands off of me
Get these lips off of me
Get this beast off of me
Just get IT off

Then pain I felt could only be compared to death
That's what I want to die here on this bathroom floor

the beast still moves in me
Had it been hours, days, a week?

how long had I been staring at this ugly green tile
How long had been looking for my innermost secret
I knew he would stop until he found it

And when it was all said and done you walked away with my innermost secret