Why?

Why can’t I think straight?
Why is everything so fucked up?
I hate this place.
Things don’t make sense.
It seems like no one can understand my thoughts.
Am I insane? Do they think I’m insane?
I feel like everyone is gone?
I want to die. No. Yes. No
I want to live and make mistakes.
I want o be here. Maybe?
I can’t take this shit anymore.
I’ll never find peace. I’ll never be happy again.
Why do I think like this? Why don’t I understand myself?