Conviction

I look deep in my heart.
I look into my soul.
I look in my mind.
I look to see myself.
I do this to try and understand why my life is good also why it's bad.
It's good because i have friends.
It's bad because one wants me all to themselves.
I don't know what to do, I try to think of it.
I am lost, I love my friend as well loving my other friend.
But the one I love and the other one I love is unbarring.
Because this friend has no problem sharing but the other does.
What am I suppose to do?
What can I do?
NOTHING! NOTHING! NOTHING!
She wants me to leave her but I can't because she loves me too.
What have I done to deserve this?
I tried to be kind to be equally fair.
But it is not enough, so tell me what am I suppose to do ?
I love both but one wants me for herself and the other is okay with sharing.
So tell me what can I do to make this work.
To break up with one I know her body like my own or to take the one I never experience before.
If I chose her then I will never see her body or feel it for my own.
As better if I stay with the one I know I will lose my other love.
My soul mate is split in two but she can't see this,
So I leave wondering what to do.
This is my conviction.