Gone? Leave. Goodbye

I saw your name pop up,
and tears sprang and fled
I felt happy again,
I let out my breath
You were back!

I thought it was a dream
That I'd wake up,
and you'd still be gone
and once again,
I'd be left alone to die

It was real though
You were there
I didn't know what to think
how was I supposed to react?

You'd been gone
and I'd wished a thousand times
that you would come back
and as fast as you did
you were gone again

Truth was,
you were only online
because you were deactivating
every account you had
so you could fade completely away

Well forget it
you can stay gone then
don't come back
and don't even think of me
I know you never really cared
so why should I want you back?

My walls are building back up
I'm not going to let anyone in
You were the one
the only one I truly loved
and this is what I got

I was told you loved me
wanted to marry me
(if you knew me in real life)
and that you would come back
it hurt that you left
but it made it easier

And now that you're gone
now I find out you are gay.
Gay? I thought you were bi.
You didn't love me
(he loved you like a sister she said)
well fuck, you lied then girly

I hate this
the world can die
I'm closing myself up
Why should I have my heart open
to bleed on the floor?