Blue

When I look at the sky
I automatically think of you
The pureness….the peace
I become indulged in the blue

It reminds me of comfortable silence
The one we shared when we’re alone
Full of silent thoughts we needn’t say
Cuz we understood eachother by heart not words

Those memories of you that I regret
Were ones that once brought me joy
They’re not sad ones, on the contrary
They’re the days that we together had enjoyed

But now they hurt cuz I know
That I’ll never get that feeling again
You’re miles away, and I don’t know
If I’m even in your heart anymore

But I don’t have the right to protest
I’m the one who decided to break us up
I was weaker then and couldn’t muster
Enough strength to stay away from my beloved

But now I know better than back then
Cuz love stays in the heart regardless the miles
Take for example my already shattered heart
After all that time it’s still wishing you back

And yet my pride won’t ever let me
Admit that I was fighting against what’s right
And even so, will your pride ever let you forgive me
For turning my back on your begging sobs?

And I know this is wishful thinking
But I can’t help but wonder if you miss me
Cuz damn, you know my heart
Keeps throbbing painfully in my chest
Everytime I see something reminding me of you
And unfortunately I’m surrounded with too much blue….