Alone

I feel so alone,
I'm hopeless in life,
I try to be happy but only find it with a knife,
It slips through my wrists and flows from my veins,
a crimson waterfall that born from pains.

Happiness is a concept burned from my soul,
this beautiful entity now covered in shadow,
will slip from this body that’s been used as a tool,
for sex,
drugs,
I'm a worthless fool.

I died once!

As I hung in the air I though about life of those who do care,
my mother and farther,
partner,
friends and my pup,
those who I loved and knew one day meet up,
but I was cheated of that blessing and brought back to this cruel world,

Now I live in the shadows,
helps my cries be covered with smiles,
twenty four hours being watched,
endless nights being touched,
friends to hold my hands, future plans,

and yet....
I feel so alone!