All My Life

All of my life
I've been waiting for you,
but what's the point in waiting
for someone that only is your dreams come true?

I remember what you like,
but in case I forget I have one photograph,
but the things I will remember most
are things like your smile and things like your laugh.

I will always remember
sitting in the front of your car,
with music playing too loud,
playing air guitar.

When you pulled the trigger in your car,
there was a blue blanket in the make seat,
and that blue blanket was mine,
You had seen wins, and loss, and now showed me defeat.

You thought since I grew up
and you knew that I would be okay,
that it was finally time to end your life,
but did you know you did it on my birthday?

You said in the note
that I added four years to your life,
and I wish I could have added more,
maybe if I would you'd have had a wife.

I don't have many memories, but the ones I do I'll never forget,
because even though I was only four
I remember what you looked like on the outside
and so much more.

I think of you every day,
and often shed a tear,
you would be turning fifty
next year.

All of my life
I'll wait for you,
and in Heaven if your there,
you'll know what you put me through.