Secret Suicide

You were all part of my life,
In the beginning you were always there helping me along, inch by inch.
But that thread we had has finally snapped.
I could have ignored you without a second thought, no worries, not a flinch.

But, I played along.
I sang my own desperate song of how one day you would understand.
But you never did.
Never tried to comfort me or hold my hand.
You all ignored it even though deep inside, you know I WAS NOT MYSELF
I no longer laughed,
But replaced that smile with a disturbed frown.
I no longer had fun with you,
This replaced by the constant though of how to drown.

And yet, you were not there.
It was like you didn't even notice,
Like I was no longer important,
YOU JUST DIDN'T CARE!
And STILL, you did not acknowledge me, and this I could see.
You were unaware of the problems that slowly, one by one, took my life from me.

I have no life now,
I hope you are aware of THIS.
You will never have to worry
And I send you this one last goodbye, this one last kiss.
For I have melted away now; dissolved.
And STILL, me, you DO NOT MISS.