Burying my Old Highschool Sweetheart

Dear...
I went to the park today
Hearing children laughing on the jungle gym reminds me of how
We used to be on the swings laughing

I went to the Mall after I was
Watching teens acting up in front of Abercrombie and thinking that
We used to act up in Hot Topic

Its amazing how much I've been coping since you left me on my own,
all those feelings I've kept bottled inside
Why would you leave?, Did you not care?

I will never find these answers, that saddens me
I will never find out how you felt before you left, What was running through your veins before you picked up that gun.

I still have the pictures of you and me; we were such a happy couple.
I was happy we stayed best friends after the turn of events.
But then you packed up without a goodbye.

Every trace of your family was gone, I couldn't contact you, and no matter how much I failed I didn't stop until found you again.
I didn’t tell you this (not like I could) but I saw you, I saw you shoot yourself and I ran. I left you and ran. (Guess where I went)
Don’t worry I came back but that day I was at a lost, to see that sent chills through my body.

I haven’t told anyone what you did, but who is there to tell anyway.
I took matters into my own hand and this letter is the final touch.
I’ve been contemplated where to send you off but then I thought of when you were most happy.

You were sitting at my old house in my backyard, you said being there made you feel at home so that’s where you are. You are back home.

You may not have said it but I'm going to.
Goodbye My Sweetheart.
Home at last.