just not sure anymore

you dont know how hard this is for me.
or mabey you do.
i dont know.
i dont know anything anymore.
i have no control over anything
my world has been upturned
and i have no control over it
or mabey i do
but i have no clue what to do
i wish i had someone to guide me
to tell me what to do
tell me how to live my life
tell me what im doing wrong
tell me how to fix things.
but what things
what is there for me to fix
besides my life.
my life feels like one big game
that people can just mess with.