i still cry

over and over i tried to make you happy, to be perfect for you.
over and over you lied when you said those 3 little words, and i was stupid enough to believe it.
over and over i cried because i know you didn't really care.

even though i try to hold on, to a false sense of hope.
even though you lied when you said those 3 words .
all the times i cried endlessly for you (hoping one day you would see how much you mean to me), you didn't even notice.

over and over, every time, i forgive you for breaking my heart.
for not caring.
for being in love with her.
and i don't understand why you can't just want me. every time you forget me, im broke.
i'm not myself.
and when you come back, even for the shortest of time, i get that false sense of hope.
that maybe you changed your mind,
i just wish you would open your eyes and see how much i care.
see how much i wish i was her.
but i'm not.
you have her and you don't see me like i see you.
i'm just a girl you met in Kentucky.

for you-- i've tried.
for me-- you've lied.
over you-- i still cry.

for C.H.