Screaming in the Inside

Its my decision too.
You decide everything without caring what I think. You never stop to see how this affects me. You boss me around never seeing my reaction. You ask about my day but never actually listen. When I'm upset you never ask me whats wrong. When I want something you never care. When I try to reach out to you, you push me away. You ask me to do things without realizing I'm hurt. When I want to talk to someone and pour out my problems you take it as something unimportant. I'm tired of trying to make you understand, to make you see. I hold in all this anger,fear,confusion,hatred but you wouldn't know. I try to pretend I'm happy but I'm not. I'm hurt and when I try to tell you, you push me away. I want to scream, I want to curse, I want to hurt you. But I cant. So everyday I walk around pretending to be happy on the outside. When inside all I feel is alone.