It's a lie

I'm standing right next to you
But I'm a million miles away
Trying to figure out how to get through one more day
I'm contemplating suicide
I'm slipping through the cracks
Wondering how much longer I can put up this act
I'm trying to feel something
But there's nothing there
The pain is suffocating me
I'm struggling for air
You ask if I'm okay
I consider my options, what I could say
I look you in the eyes and whisper "I'm fine"
I only wish someone cared enough to look closer
And see it's a lie