Ever.

Dont you see what you've done?
You blamed it on your father.
It isn't his fault you ended up were you are. No. Not his. Only yours.
You can't blame all your mistakes on his death. It wasn't your suicide. Just his.
You feel like your dancing with his devils in the midnight sun.
You tried to blame yourself. Blame. Denial.
You told yourself you caused his over dose.
I can't go on. I'm losing this fight. I did this to myself. No one did this but me.
I can't go on living this way. No. I won't go on.
Nothings alright. No. I've made my own mistakes. I did this on my own.
I realize i didn't cause your suicide. I know i didn't push you to over dose.
I just wish you could've been here for me, now that i need you more then ever.