First One in a While (Forever)

I left to pursue other goals
It sure has been a while sense bile has flowed from these lips.
But now I'm back and with a new aspiration as you just sit exasperated.
Im like a squirrel looking for nuts as you search for the words to speak
Just like you did when I left you and now you know what knowledge is all about.
It's like a razor cutting the skin as I dug deeper in.
The shadow of a dream is nothing more than loose skin.
The same scar tissue from years before.
You think your life is hard? You think it's rough to be you?
Well try being mentally tormented as the tormentor marries your mother.
Then being beaten and emotionally fucked in the ass as he just sits and laughs.
Six years of living in the shit.
Digging deeper into the pit.
And then I hit China as the sun shown on me.
I knew I was finally free from the pain bearing down on me.
Yeah I've seen the dark side of the moon and the deeps of the Abyss.
But I've also seen the rainbows that most never do.
The freedom of life without chains and shackles.
And now I do what I do cause i just wanna be me.
I mean come on.
You only got one life to live on this earth so live it well.
Otherwise you'll hit the bottom of the well.
And never get up, like I almost didn't.
Things come and go.
So just remember.
You won't be there forever.