If only isn't needed, I've been taken over
There is a word called if. If only, if only is how it goes. If only, if only, that is what is said. If only, if only is very true. So just let me tell you.
If only you were still here, it would all be ok. I wouldn't be in pain, my heart wouldn't be broken in two. One side my unconditional love for you, the other thinking of how many ways to end this misery that brings tears that you don't get to see.
If only you hadn't left everything would still be right. My world wouldn't be in tiny pieces broken and scattered around me. With me having to watch it all fall apart and out of my control to stop the damage that has traveled my way. The damage came but there is more to come, but you won't ever know the truth of how much damage there truly was.
If only you would have just realized how much you meant to me, we would still be together. Our lives, our futures changed forever, all by your doing. A lifetime we could have spent together, and you picked a cold future compared to the love I could have given.
If only you could have scene just how much you leaving me would effect me, my life, my soul, and my being. Nothing will ever replace my memory of you. But someone will come and replace you someday. But they won't be picking up the broken pieces of my life for me, because I will already have fixed all the destruction that you brought without help. I won't lie something has taken over me.
If only, if only you could see the outcome, but only if only won't be enough, for you will never see the tears I cry deep at night, you will never see the outcome of this destruction that you brought. I've let go, I've let someone else take over. Its no man, its no being, its me, myself and I who I am remaking and realizing that I don't need, I'll never need you again. I'll never be on my knees in despair. I've let my old self take over, and I've let a higher power take away the pain. So good bye, there is no need for if only, because my future is better this way.
If only you were still here, it would all be ok. I wouldn't be in pain, my heart wouldn't be broken in two. One side my unconditional love for you, the other thinking of how many ways to end this misery that brings tears that you don't get to see.
If only you hadn't left everything would still be right. My world wouldn't be in tiny pieces broken and scattered around me. With me having to watch it all fall apart and out of my control to stop the damage that has traveled my way. The damage came but there is more to come, but you won't ever know the truth of how much damage there truly was.
If only you would have just realized how much you meant to me, we would still be together. Our lives, our futures changed forever, all by your doing. A lifetime we could have spent together, and you picked a cold future compared to the love I could have given.
If only you could have scene just how much you leaving me would effect me, my life, my soul, and my being. Nothing will ever replace my memory of you. But someone will come and replace you someday. But they won't be picking up the broken pieces of my life for me, because I will already have fixed all the destruction that you brought without help. I won't lie something has taken over me.
If only, if only you could see the outcome, but only if only won't be enough, for you will never see the tears I cry deep at night, you will never see the outcome of this destruction that you brought. I've let go, I've let someone else take over. Its no man, its no being, its me, myself and I who I am remaking and realizing that I don't need, I'll never need you again. I'll never be on my knees in despair. I've let my old self take over, and I've let a higher power take away the pain. So good bye, there is no need for if only, because my future is better this way.
♠ ♠ ♠
It's not meant to be holy or anything. I just broke up with my boyfriend who is in the military. I felt very inspired to write this,even though it isn't good or anything. But after writing it, I felt a whole lot better and the pain I've been feeling is gone.