The Monster With the Chelsea Grin

I'm looking in the mirror only to behold
A creature with razor teeth and screaming eyes of gold.
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It has blood dripping from its mouth down to the tile
Its fur is black as is its heart- wicked and vile.
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Spikes raise from its back and its head,
And claws reach out, and to me is said,
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"I'll eat you over and over" and it does as it told me.
everyday, without fail, when I look in the mirror I turn into dinner for a beast.
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I'm looking down in the sink and blood's dripping from my lips,
It runs and runs and pours to the floor from my wrists.
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Only I don't die, I don't scream, I don't even feel anymore,
But when I look down in the mirror I wish to shreik in horror.
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Sometimes I'm convinced I'm okay with the beast
But deep down I know I'm not okay with being my own feast.
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I hate myself, body and soul;
So I open wide, chew and swallow- sometimes whole.
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What I see in myself makes me want to cry
But the chelsea grin the beast gave me only makes me push harder- have to try.
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Try to fool everyone, eventually me, too.
But the more I try the more monsters come out and beat me black and blue.
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His gory smile defies my tries
And he hooks his claws into my skin- yanks and into his world I fly.
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Only I exist in this world everyday, every night.
I can't win this ever, maybe I'll quit trying to fight.
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