Or Not

I'm not saying I forgive you
That I believe what you said was true
I know you lied
A lot
But at least you tried
Or not
So I'm not saying I forgive
But I'm your daughter
And you're my father
So if I must, I'll say I love you
A lot
But I've lied so much I don't know i it's true
Or not
I've covered for the things you've done
Pretending to live in Oblivion
So at least tried
A lot
And you payed me back
Or not
So I won't say I forgive you
Until I know for sure it's true
But I promise to think about it
A lot
So someday it'll be true
Or not