RAPE.

Why me?
Out of everyone around
You picked
The new girl in town.

The one not so pretty
No very bright
A whose future
You had to rewrite
Burning old pages
But standing polite
I wish I could’ve seen
Now I see in black and white

The world lost its color
It lost its spark
All because in my soul
You made the light dark
You blew out the candle
And made some remark
Pulling me in
I should’ve stayed from the dark

Some demon you were
With false ‘good intentions’
You said your kind words
And later showed sin
Even though I fought
There was no way I’d win
In those hectic moments
I swear I saw the devil grin

The once beautiful leaves
Looked dull and lifeless
The pain inside my body
Was one I couldn’t express
It’s been four years now
And I’m here to confess
To the innocence you took
With satisfying success

Though, I came out with a smile
Hiding behind what was true
I laughed and enjoyed
Despite what I went through
But I became someone else
Someone scared, someone new
I know they are strong words
But I really hate you

Depression peaked
I didn’t like who I became
A blade to my wrist
Derived from shame
“It was my fault, really
I’m the one to blame
I skipped school that day
I ignited the flame”

But it wasn’t me
Who said the first word
I remember your voice
How it sounded absurd
I was such a mess
As I sat on the curb
It’s now that I wish
Your voice was unheard

Why me?
Out of everyone you knew
You picked
A different victim to pursue

You left me broken
Beaten and abused
You left me aching
Hurting and confused
You left me forever
Feeling used
But you jerk,
You stood amused

If rape were a color
I think it’d be red
For all the demanding pain
And thousands of tears shed
For the nightmares that haunt
And the blood that bled
For a random person
Who I obviously misread

I’ll never forget
That wretched day
When you took
My innocence away
In my mind
It will forever stay
But me?
I’m doing okay.