My Love

The first glance you spared me,
Became a second when you pasted by,
You bump into my shoulder,
As you smile and say hi.
Why I stood out amongst the others,
I always ask you why,
I am not the girl for you,
When you pass by everyone sighs.
Talking and texting night and day,
We waste away time,
Always trying to find out what to say,
I would always spare you a dime.
For everytime you smile,
I would give you a kiss,
But if I shall give up my life,
You would be the only thing I would miss.
Together as one we become,
Here comes your undying love,
Why did you change after that,
I will still think of you as my cute little dove.
Here comes the pain and hurt,
You were always there for me,
Even if you were the one,
That was throwing me in the dirt.
We laugh the pain away,
As though it was never there,
Even if you are the one that causes it all,
I still love you and can't help but stare.
I have always wondered why you hurt me,
But for some reason I can't help but love you,
The one time I try to show you the most,
It turns into a relationship redo.
That night we shared in my room,
Turned into something,
I would have loved to take away from my memories,
As it has changed my life into nothing.
I can now never say I haven't done that,
As for you have forced me to do it,
I will always lay in bed,
Now feeling as though I lay in my new pit.
I cry myself to sleep,
And wake up screaming,
I alway hope,
That I am just dreaming.
For now that I am scared,
To even sit alone at night,
Everything has changed,
Even my shadow gives me a fright.
You may be locked up and away,
But I still feel like your watching me,
Can't you just leave me alone,
And let me be.
Even though all this has happened,
I willstill think of you my deranged little dove,
I could never hate you,
You will aways be my one and only love.