The Angel's Tears

Days of empty sorrows slowly ripen into years
As my fire burns away with a silent angel's tears.
But your heart and mine together form a lovely gentle flame
And it hurts my soul to think that we will never be the same.
When it rains outside my window and the sky is ever gray
I write down words of wisdom that my lips will never say.
But my life is slowly melting into pieces never fixed
And I know our lives together should have never become mixed.

As my young untainted eyes searched my mother's tired face
I knew that someone left me who I never could replace
And she always made me wonder why I was ever left alone
But she ended her own life as my hidden pains had grown
Yet in the cold and lonely depths of my twisted, battered heart
I knew that my own sorry fault was the one who kept us apart.
And my secret kept inside nearly killed me with the guilt
And a satisfaction came when my crimson blood was spilt.

Though my father never knew that I should really take the blame
I heard his bitter sorrow every time he shrieked my name
And he never said he loved me though it made a lot of sense
Because I was the one who broke down his strong, fearful defense
As I tried to hold the burden of both our throbbing aches
I knew that it must end soon as my fingers always shake
As I grasped a broken pencil and wrote down my final words
I wished upon you freedom of a thousand gliding birds.

But even though my story ends you must never forget
That even as my whispers die you still have much time yet
And as the sickened pages of my life's weary book will close
I find the things I wish for in the patterns of a rose.
As my apathetic eyes search the violet flowers' dreams
The petals of their lives tell me it's never as it seems
Because days of empty sorrows slowly ripen into years
As my fire burns away with a silent angel's tears.