Can't Handle It

It breaks my heart to think about,
All the ways it could work out.
I wish that you could finally see,
How much I wish that she was me.
This isn't how I wanted you to know,
But poetry is how I let my true feelings show.
I know that we're the best of friends,
And we will be until the end.
I know how you feel,
As do you about me too.
I never want to lose you in my life,
However I can't keep up this lie,
Never will I cut you out,
But all our plans have been shot down;
Our wonderful summer image has been destroyed,
Because I can't ignore the feeling that I'm just your toy.
All those wonderful words you say,
Only last for that single day.
I wonder what exactly will happen,
When we see each other once again,
Because you promises to hurry back to me,
Only serve to double my grief.
Until your current relationship ends,
I will only ever be your friend.
I hate how I've felt so used,
From now on I won't be saying: "I love you."