Why?

Rain pounds on the ground,
As I look up to the sky.
Tears are camouflaged
By the rain drops seeping down my cheeks.

Pain results
In the secrets I hold
I could have let them go,
But I covered them with lies.

Glass will shatter
Blood will fall
I didn't know
Things would end up like this

I could have told
I could have gotten help
But the idea scares me
All I need is the thing that kills me

A sting announces
The blood reminds me
Of the blade in my hand
Of the scars on my arms

All my conscious can say
Is why?
Before it fades away.
Why?