I Spend My Days

I spend my days
Staring through a window as I try
To hold in tears I don't want to cry
I spend my days
Forcing myself to live
For you. Because I just want to die
I spend my days
Hardening myself to pain
Only to break down and cry in the rain
I spend my days
Longing for death
Want to skip that final breath
I spend my days
Brooding in the dark
The cuts in my life have left their mark
I spen my days
Wondering if my scars will heal
If ever again, I'll be able to feel
I spend my days
Wondering if I'm to close to the edge
Or if I should just jump the ledge
So now you know the different ways
That I like to spend my days