I'm Bad

Dear Friend,

I know I’m not perfect and I have fucked up
And I know I don’t really know you
But I’m really not a bad person.

He said he wouldn’t hurt me or be like my other exes
But he has been; he is hurting me so bad.
And I can’t just ignore it cuz I know I’m not such a bad person.

I do tend to manipulate and act mean but I don’t try to
And I don’t want to,
I just want people to know I’m not so bad...

He’s hurting me like he said he never would
And I wasn’t so bad, he just didn’t understand!
I feel bad cuz I know I was a bitch
But I drove him away and I made someone that loved me hate me.

How can I do that?

Am I really that bad?

And his locker is literally next to mine at school.
I just feel like shit
Cuz I know he will try and make shit up
And I have done nothing
I just want to let the balloon slip from my hands
I want to be happy!

Oh geez....
I’m not even making sense

I’m sorry I’m making you listen to my stupid crazy shit

I’m so very really sorry....