To Kill These Butterflies

To kill the butterflies
Would give relief
To stop believing the lies
Save tears

Your words are spun from gold
On the most diamante of webs
Entangled, trapped, in this cocoon of undesired love, lust and madness.
I feel no escape is near.

And as my tears fall from my eyes that you have closed shut to everything but you
I wonder what truth falls from the cherished mouth I kiss
What is real and what is not?

For I am lost in this web. Trapped with no energy to find the will to run.

Is this love real? Is it as electrifying as it feels?

Or is it a one sided deal, where I swoon at your touch and inside you laugh at the adoring blue eyes.

For someone to give me a net
To catch and kill these butterflies
That dizzy my senseless mind

I believe myself to be lost.
But I will try to find my way out
Of this diamond encrusted web.