I'm done.

The kiss meant everything
Yet nothing all the same
Your lips were hard, emotions fake
Still I agreed to your stupid game

I played the part for my broken heart
And gave myself away
Not a one night stand, but one scene
In a weeklong romantic play

But then you left for three months
As we both knew you would
And I let myself think that I was on the brink
Of something finally good

But I cheated myself, how you cheated me
And my open wound grew into a scar
I can’t talk to you like I have wanted to
To figure out what we are

Was it make believe? Our pretend
To keep us sane before you were gone
A four year old crush bashed into musch
Making me fragile as a fawn

When you return I can’t make something
No relationship more than friend
I’ll stand my ground and guard my heart
So the us can come to an end

Because love’s just a word and dreams do die
Like whatever we made that week
A broken heart plus a physical want
Brings decisions, poor in a terrible streek

I can’t deny I was in the wrong
For lying is not my thing
But I split myself in half for you
Yes you, and our little fling

But the words you said
That you’re gone just sting more every day
All you wanted for me was respect
And support from all the guys who came my way

But you’ve cursed me now
And guess what I’ve found
Many men are moving in
No matter if tthey’re tall or round

Because naked pictures are what they crave
And I’m a “fucking whore”
Chivalry’s dead, all men have fled
And pigs are at my door

So give me your gun, for I am done
Through with innocent games
I’ll hand it to you for putting me through
Another lesson of “love” with no gain

So when you come back just know
We’re done
But, thanks for yet another blood stain.