I'm Just Me

Why the hell do you keep doing this to me?
You make me laugh,
You make me cry.
And at the end of the day I have to mask all of my pain.
I know I'll never have a chance with you,
Why I keep after you, I haven't a clue.
You found HER.
Beautiful, happy, perfect her.
Skinny,
Stoner,
Make-up wearer.
But I'm sorry, I'm just none of those things.
I'm chubby,
Sober,
and alllll natural.
I tried wearing make-up today but I didn't feel beautiful;
I felt like a fool.
Then I realized,
I'm happy being ME.
But, you don't like ME.
So, hello square one...