Aspirations (Weak of Mind)

Who am I to judge
The way that others precise
I'm likely to just come undone
Before I'm ready to believe

There's no way you would see me
Even if I was standing all alone
I can't decide where I want to be
In your eyes or on my own

Who am I to beg for difference
When I know you're something I'll never reach
And so I must bear witness
From a distance I can't defeat

I should be satisfied with what I have
Not to focus on what will never be mine
But I can't put this horrors in the past
Long enough to leave those dreams behind

What makes me so ignorant
When it comes to wanting you around
I know this plight lacks innocence
I know in the end you'll just turn me down

Could I risk potential happiness
Just to have you in my heart
Shouldn't I learn to cherish this
Instead of wish for a brand new start

It doesn't matter what I decide
You'll never understand the way that I think
Even if I could make you mine
It would never be what I dreamed

Maybe I should live in this moment
Push thoughts of you away
These aspirations only postpone it
This unconditional trust I may not betray

Whether these arms those or theirs
Maybe I'll end up with no one at all
You're the one who without would cause me despair
He'll be the one who breaks my fall