A Moment of Truth

This bitter world is breaking me,
and taking me by storm.
This dreadful place has forsaken me,
and I don't think I can bear anymore.

This barren life has sent me spinning,
Into concepts I just can't understand.
There was nothing for me from the beginning,
And nothing I've seen is going as planned.

For what I've hoped for has fled,
and left me with nothing to wish for.
The wounds I'd thought had healed all bled,
and drained today leaving me forlorn.

The things I've believed have ceased to exist,
If they were ever even one around.
That must have been a day I missed,
Or one where I was beaten down.

Today's blend with tomorrows as far as I can see,
and my days and nights become the same.
There's nothing left that can awaken me,
From a world where I'm the one being blamed.

The shadows are my curtains,
Veiling me from a world of hate.
The ghost's tell me it will be worth it,
If I can just find it in me to wait.

This saddened soul is what I've become,
In a world from which I can't be freed.
But for this moment and only this one,
I will try my hardest to believe.