Blood and Tears

Perky, chirpy, happy, sunny
You all think I'm cheerful and bright
I have no worries, I have no fears
But everyone know vampires only come out at night
That's when the terror begins and the happy mask melts away
It's When I start to drown in blood and tears
Because ever since the demon set my soul on fire
I've been filled with unnatural desire
The desire to cut
Pain makes me cry
I press down on the cut
I can't let myself die
I will fight. And I will win
Pressure doesn't stop the bleeding
I won't give in to this sin
But my mind the demons are reading
They pull my hand away.
Blood and tears stain the floor
My time for this is over
I get up and walk
Taking my blood and tears out the door
The sun begins to rise
Troubles melt away
in their size
And I put my mask on and play cheerful girl of the day
Stretch my face into a smile
Pretend to be a beaming ray
And try to count the days I find worthwhile
I live but it's hard to see if I won or lost
Mabe I should give in to the demons of the night
I my mask for the day has to high a cost
Or if it's to big a fight
I wonder all this
While drowning in blood and tears
I fight the flood of fears
And die in my blood and tears