I am nothing

when I'm with you
i smile i joke
i chat i poke
i feel normal
you'd never guess
it was such a task
acting happy
its just a mask

when I'm with you
i do what ever you want
even if i know its wrong
i cant say no
I'm not that strong

so i feel special
so they call me 'your girl'
but the trouble is
it is all a lie
when i go to sleep
many tears i cry

i sell my self to be in
but what is in
how long does it last before
I'm yesterday's news

you may look at me in awe today
but watch when i go away for two seconds
i come back and I've been replaced
I'll go back to my place
where i should be
cause i thought i was worth more than i am
i thought i deserved attention
i thought i was special
but now i realize the sad truth
I AM NOTHING