I Will Wear This Mask

This mask I wear

Is just a way to hide it

The anger and the hurt

That is why I hide behind the lies that are my mask

It covers everything

Painting ‘happy’ on my features

For everyone to see

I paint it every morning

Painting layers of lies over and over

Hiding my true face under this mask

Behind all the lies

But even after my careful painting

Cracks appear sometimes
Showing what I try so hard to hide

Sometimes people see

But I prepare my brush

And cover up the cracks

Sometimes I tear of my mask

Let myself cry

My tears smudging the emotions I had so carefully painted

But in the end

I’m always pulling out my paints

My brush creates another me

I will have a smile

And maybe it will even reach my eyes

Depending on how many layers I paint

And I will continue

My brush streaking lies across my face

Until there is no more anger and hurt to cover

I will wear this mask