I am Trying.

I know.
I know that you care,
I know you want to help,
I know you're always there.

But I don't want you to be hurt,
So I'll push you away,
I don't know when it'll happen,
It could be today.

It hurts knowing you hurt.
But when I'm crying,
I think about what you said.
How you think I'm not trying.

I can tell you I am,
I know it's hard to see,
And to believe,
But you're not me.

You don't understand,
You're not in my head,
It's impossible to guess,
And I've never said.

But just know what you're doing.
When you say I'm not trying.
Because when I tell you I am,
I mean it.

I'm not lying.