as i slit my wrist

As I slit my wrist
When I feel the pain
While I watch the blood
Run down my hand
It makes me feel live
It makes me feel controlled
But when my life runs out
It will soon unfold
The truth of what I’ve done
The world will find
I wish I was alive
To feel the pain of being
Burn to ashes
For the life of shame
I'll take the blame
But it wasn't my fault
I lived that way