the house

This house is tethered
and falling apart
I stand within it
but its breaking my heart

the walls new, and freshly painted
But the holes will always remain
The doors hang open and unlocked
no more love no one to shout

The rooms are empty are quiet
i don't know where to turn
i'm silent

The dirt fills my lungs
and reminds me of you
maybe i was wrong
maybe you was too

I wish i knew the answer
But that will never come
I have ruined it all
I have lost the fun

my puppies wine
They know whats wrong
But whats a master to do
when he doesn't shine

Forget the key
i wish i could lose it
forever will i troment myself
in this abusive elusive

I sit here in this room
all alone
all i can think about
Is that phone

paranoia
Did it ruin me?
Or did i just forget
what the hell i see?

I hate this house
i am not a man
i can not open my eyes
i can not stand
i will not protest
I will never forget
The last 3 years
Or the build up to admit
nothing will change
this hole in my heart
I freaking hate you
but thats the loveing part

As much as i try
I can't give up
The love for you
Or this broken heart

I hope all goes well
with your new life
mine is shattered
Just the other night