Beautiful Disaster

The quiet screams the truth
I don't want to fall into you
you are all I'm holding onto
I don't want to be alone
everyday I see your face
I wish I could disappear
I'll try even if it kills me
if it doesn't cause so much pain
I'd be done with you, but i cant
always comes back to you
you're the start of my end
you're my beautiful disaster
I've fallen so deep you can't pull me out
I'm hopeless, lost forgotten
only when I'm alone
I mourn the loss of you, and myself
I'm the ghost of a girl that i want to be most
the shell of a girl that i used to know well
its too late to apologize
I cant tell you everything
I want a redo, do-over, second chance
I go back to December all the time
you are my never again
I don't want things to go back
I'm on my own in a sea of troubles
what would you say if I died tonight?
everything's okay, until I'm alone
I'll make my own path without trespassers
you're everything

and i can't have you.