Confusion

I'm waiting in the darkness

Scared outta my mind

with a razor blade to my skin

wanting ot feel the blade on my skin

feeling so confused

I just want that blad to rip through my vein

so many promises that prevent me

so much temptation

Someone came in and flipped on the light

I jumped, the blade cut a little

It felt so good

It was him

but I don't know who he is. . .

he saved my life. . .

but I still want to fell the blood flow

I still want to feel that blade rip through my vein

and tear through my skin

and yet. . . I'm still so confused