Ill try to feel better

Why doesn't he understand me
All he seems to care about is himself
That's why i can no longer see
Why there is any reason to go on

Every time i seem to motivate myself
He always brings me down
I turn and see everyone
And all they can see is a frown

He used to be the person i could trust
But now i only see his rejection
And thinks that all i can do is fuss
And no longer shows me any loving affection

But why cant anybody see
The pain that lurks inside me

My sister, the one that i said was my friend
Has turned her back on me once again

Am i going to continue to see the oblivious infection
That seems to destroy my every protection

It seems that the only person i can trust is my mom
But what can i do to not let this connection go wrong

Although that she does make me sad at some time
She has never told me that I'm a waist of time

But how can i tell her what I'm feeling inside
Since what i do, it feels like a crime

Cutting and bleeding
Just to feel a short reliving

The person that i used to tell has told me that i am manipulative
just to get what i want
But he does not understand that that's how i show my sadness

I turn it to anger
So no one will see
The weaken side of me

I'm still here just for my mom
Cuz her love feels like it will never be gone

Ill try feel better someday
So that it will feel like every problem has gone away