Closed (Break These Walls)

Against your walls, I’d kept up the grind
Your taunting voice in the back of my mind
Little notes and clues to find
Left my other world behind
The force in me had then resigned
Fell down the length that I had climbed
Got back up, more determined now
You’re too good to be true, I don’t see how
You took what you did
You’re way too strong!
That’s why you and I had gotten along
We’re both born leaders, cream of the crop
Never the bitch, never able to stop
Well it seems your fall had come about first
The time in our lives that can’t be rehearsed
I scooped you up and laid you down
And said I’d always be around
You stabled out and all was good
I had done everything that I could
We grew stronger together and we were great
I felt I had come a little too late
But we grew deeper still and next thing I knew
We reached the consensus to join as one from two
There were too many problems and bitches in the way
So you panicked and shut down but I said I would stay
There was so much back and forth, I caved
And to a legion of my mind, I became enslaved
Although we were closer and more together
I knew that we couldn’t be forever
Tensions grew high and I shriveled within
Grew victim to drugs, abuse and sin
It was too much to take and not enough help
I’d finally decided to help myself
All was exposed and I came out clean
No stresses yet about the future unseen
We talked less and less, I had to speak up
Unfortunately, you couldn’t seem to man up
I played it off and stuck to idle chat
I’d grit my teeth hard, I hated that
Too long had passed with unbearable sorrow
I brought it up and you said we’d talk tomorrow
Evasion and apathy and lies and bull
Our conversations grew very dull
Now you say you’re closing me out
You believe that you can do without
“I didn’t mean it like that, babe, I’m worried is all.”
“Well history will show that’s not it at all.”
I suffer seeing you suffering
I’m dying watching you die
I can’t believe this is all for real
For fucks sake, man, we had made a deal!
I know it was influenced, but dammit I meant it
Our bond of trust was in me cemented
Your sweet words and your powerful smell
I can find anywhere, I know it so well
Through crowds of people and all their noise
They’re just a bunch of little boys
They’re nothing to me, my heart is yours
As far as I’m concerned, you’re worth waiting for
I’ll wait til you’re dead and I’ll be there still
I’d be so out of my head, the devil and I would have made a deal
I’m not leaving you and somehow you don’t understand
The power you weild right in your hand
I’ve given you my brittle heart
Admitting it was the hardest part
Still can’t say for sure, but I think I’m in love
Almost make me believe there’s something above
Until I get there, I want back in
I want to be your only friend
Don’t include me in with those swine
Are their voices as soothing as mine?
I miss your kisses, I miss your touch
I miss your affection and being loved so much
I’ll be damned if I can’t get back through these walls
I’m going to be the one to catch you when you fall
You’ve never had a softer landing.