Why Can't I?

I see you all laughing,
Why can't I?
I see you all smiling,
When I do it's a lie.

I wonder why I can't,
What've I done wrong?
Tell me so I can change it,
My life's been too long.

One friend goes,
And a long year goes by,
Then a closer one too,
You didn't tell me why.

So what if a third does?
There's no one left to care,
There's no one left to miss me,
There's no one there.

Our reasons are different,
But the result is the same,
We all go anyway,
We all lose the game.

I wanted you to help,
But now you just ignore me,
Why do you do that?
Why can't you see?

I know some of you did,
Some of you tried,
Just like I did,
But they still died.

I see you all going,
Why can't I?
I think I will,
So goodbye.