The Past

this past that haunts me
leaves me with nothing
but broken bones
and scared up wrists

its kills me to look
to think back on the past
all of the memories
that will never be lost

what if i would have died
from all of the beatings
and knifes held to my throat

would anyone miss me
would anyone care
if someone knew
would they have tried
to stop all of the madness

what if i were not here today
would the world wonder,
think, want an explanation
for my unexplained disappearance

this past the haunts me
will be forever in my thoughts
thoughts of suicide
and wanting to die
will be forever on my mind

for some people its easy
but for me it will never happen
i cant forget
no matter how hard i try
my past will always haunt me