Your Black Hole Heart

I wonder when youll realize I need you,
That without you I cant breathe,
And I feel myself slowly suffocating in my head, '
And how everything youve ever said to me rings out in my brain,
Forcing me to fall deeper into this fucking nothingness,
I hate to believe I depend so much upon you,
But the fact that you were my first love lets me know,
Youll never be forgotten,
And youll always be my friend,
Whether in your mind that changes in your mind or not,
My heart will always long for your touch,
But you broke me beyond repair,
And I have to move on now,

Knowing your constantly hurting kills me,
But maybe youll realize how I felt when I found you were with her too,
And even if Id never wish that pain on anyone,
I cant help but hope one day youll realize what you did to me,
And find someone youll treat better,
And maybe youll make her as happy as you made me,
If only for a short while,
So this is my painful anthem of a goodbye,
Because I fear I have no more tears to spare upon you,
Because Ive already wasted so many,
And now Ive let you go,
And until last night youd faded from my memory,
It hurts me to know I wasted even more tears on you,
But if this is goodbye I suppose its only normal,

Even if letting you go means leaving part of myself behind,
Its something I have to do,
I dont expect you to understand,
But please dont ever the words i love you to me again,
It will only constrict my heart in these chains more,
Knowing that as long as I chased you youve only just begun to chase me, '
But Im afraid I dont plan on being caught in your trap again,
Because being in your arms is like being held my a knife,
So beautiful but dangerous to the touch,
Allowing my blood to stain your heart,
Ill never forget what you said,
Ill always love you, Ill never give up,
And Im afraid you may have just confirmed my worst fears,
Because those are the same words I said to you when you shattered me,
And I became the shattered reflection of the person I am today,
And Im afraid Im not sorry,
Because Im not going to apologize for trying to pick up the peices of my essence,
And whenever you need me Ill be here,
But I cant waste any more love in your heart,
Because all it does is suck it dry.