Life Sucks

These are the hard times I’m going through,
These are the happenins of recent and new.
Abandonment from family young and old,
Dad drinking hisself away, her soul has been sold!
Self consciousness is now so strong,
Thoughts of eating feels so wrong!
Pushing everyone so close away
When all I need is for them to stay
Killing myself slowly with each puff
For the world opening up my muff
Turned into such a slut
This is not the end but…
Drinking away all of my brain cells
Tears on my pillow in puddles and wells
Resulting from my pain is depression and shame
Not wanting anbody else to know my name.