For a daughter to mother

For all the daughters who will never have the day where their mothers help them find the perfect white wedding dress. For all the daughters that will never have their mothers help them get ready on their wedding day. For all the daughters that won't have that special day where they tell their mothers' the big news and share a special moment of when the daughter finds out she is becoming a mother. For all the daughters that won't get that support that only a mother can give on the day of delivery. For all the daughters that will never have their mothers there to give them advice, to tell them when they are wrong and to be there when they need their mothers most.
Those special mother, daughter moments are forever gone. They will never exist until the day I have a daughter of my own, and those special moments will be a gift that I will give to her that I never received. All the blame and pain due to the fact that a mother chose a man over her daughter. A fact that a mother chose the drugs and alcohol over daughter. A fact that the pain will forever stay as the earliest memory for a daughter. A fact that a mother chose to never give the most important gift a mother can give which is love, comfort, and all the special memories only a mother and daughter can make together.
To this it makes for an aching heart, and a desperate desiring soul searching for someone or something to fill this blank empty space that could only be filled by a mother and those special moments I'll never receive.