What is it?

Wearing this situation in
But you're wearing me out
There's no doubt
About it

Will this be always?
I'm counting moments for more than a few days
More than a few weeks
I can tell you, it feels like forever

Speak the words
And I'll find your face
Yet I'll run away
If someone else says your name

I'm smiling falsely
I'm hoping you'll arrive back
These smiles only good for the camera
Geniune joy is what I lack

I fool myself more than words could say
Always
In denial
For awhile

The light deceives me
You're not there
I'm trapped for you, I want to be free
I stop and stare

At nothing pretending you're there
As if you even care
I'm strumming on my guitar
Wondering where you are

Near or far
Up and down
Forever and a day
Just always