Sleep Paralysis: It'll All Be Over Soon

I’m tired of writing in substitution for crying.

I’m tired of trying in substitution for dying.

My feelings so strong, going to the extreme.

Staying up late thinking what’s wrong with me?

It’ll all be over soon I’d like to think

Because even a bulletproof heart tends to sink.

I grew up thinking this life ain’t for me

But I kept trying to go on living, hoping

Something’s out there for me to change

Something’s out there better made

To keep my future going so bright

Without messing with my fate, my life

Five fuckin’ times I felt hate

Five fuckin’ times I fell from grace

And four times one is not a game

Every single time I’m left the same.

They say this ain’t right. I’m fuckin’ insane.

Life’s too hard when your thoughts can’t be tamed.

People think I’m a monster cuz of the things I say

But I’m only a human going through so much pain.

So much to pay. So little to gain.

I push too hard only to fall in vain.

But I try to pick myself back up again

For another day to try all over again.

But things get tougher, I try to get stronger.

Maybe I do but it’s taking much longer.

Sleep Paralysis Changed its Methods

That’s Not Fair for a Lucid Dreamer

Moments in Life keep screwing over

Brutal for a hopeful believer.

I’m tired of writing in substitution for crying.

I’m tired of trying in substitution for dying.

My feelings so strong, going to the extreme.

Staying up late thinking what’s wrong with me?