If I could know

I'm sorry for whatever I did
What I did to deserve this pain
I would like to know
But you will never tell
Why, because it' not fun for you if you do
If I could know how to control it
If I could know what caused it
If I could ever fix it
I want my life back
I don't want to be controlled by pain
I feel lonely because of this
Was that your intention?
For me to be lonely?
If it was then you won you did it
I'm lonely as ever