For Him

I'm sorry for being selfish
I'm sorry for trying to forget
every moment we had once, I cherrished
and when I tried, I just couldn't regret...
I thought I wanted to try new things
I thought I wanted someone else
but all my efforts failed into a big waste of time
full of shallow boys and many tears I had to cry.
I'm blind
can't make up my mind
but I know what I feel
and this time it will be for real
if you'll have me...
I'm sorry for being silent and causing you much pain
I'm sorry for all this time I stayed away
but the truth is I've always cared for you
and I think you feel the same
I've missed you so very much
no, I'm not playing games.
but this time that we have spent apart
has given me time to mature
has given me time to realize
that things in life
aren't given, but are earned.
and if, you could ever want me, could ever forgive me
after all that I've done
I promise you forever in return.
your heart I couldn't bear to hurt, one more time.
I've been blind
could never make up my mind
but this time...
it's you.
like it should have always been.