Conflictions

They try so hard for me to have fun,
But I honestly fear their mission cannot be done.
It's not fair... why do I feel this way?
How can I tell them; what do I say?
If I tell them how I feel,
I'm afraid of the laughter their bodies conceal.
All alone with so many near,
But no-one to notice a single tear...
My biggest lie ever, I might as well say,
Is that I will be okay...